Questioned pain seeking celebrated dullness

something related to a time in the hospital this last spring. crazy how things started but thankfully i received the necessary treatment.

one statement from someone close to me was that she wasn't sure she liked the flow. this is an important consideration and interestingly was thought about in development. funny that! but good feedback and a worthy criticism.

see what ya think...

Questioned pain seeking celebrated dullness

Emergency nurse asks uninterestingly, “constant or intermittent?”
I’m not here for what she asks but reply, “chronic and acute.”
She repeats annoyed with less interest, “constant or intermittent?”
I GASP, “constant and intermittent!” How you like that one!? With breathless indignation.
Follow me she instructs after a few minutes of frantic scribbling.

This is how it is even in the most extreme of circumstances. Having presented to the hospital with a type 2 emergency and learning about the narcotic pain regiment for something unrelated, a barrage of less curious supposedly caring questions usher forth with the intent of lick-ert(ing) my unseen inner turmoil.
1) Strongly disagree
2) Disagree
3) Never agree nor disagree
4) Agree
5) Strongly Agree
What BETTER way to discribe the streched thin, ever dulling, stabing sensations that play their part both “constant and intermittent”.
Constant? O’, I strongly disagree madam paid too little nusre who only has to jout down the right response. Chronic feels more true, empowered with the feeling of omnipresence.
Intermittent? Again, o’ wise sage checking off the time clock by your station. If it were an analoug clock it would pierce the seconds with the same knife-like quality that shoots through me every other intstance very a cutely .

At least in respitory distrass, the enemy can be seen and confronted.
STAT! Get this! HERE! ALLLLLLLLLLLLL BETER ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Well I strongly disagree. Surely the presenting problem is “fixed” (until the next intermittent instance) but what of the other? The…
The pain, the pain, the pain, is constantly questioned.
How is it? What is it? Where is it? Why is it? IS IT?
Is it? All the time in celebrated wonderment do they wonder whether what I describe is, is, is what? Help me Rensis. Help me!
“On a scale of one to ten with one being no pain what so ever and ten being the worst pain you have ever felt”
This is just it isn’ it? This is where the problem lyes. To quantify a personal qaulity that regularly changes yet to be understood by the self and by others. WOW! A meeting of the minds felt bodily. No wonder so many people choose to simply answer after anwsering so often the rightly juxtaposed inaccurately but percisely poised, “constant or intermittent?”
Dull as it may seem it’s the dullness that is achieved.
The qustioner becomes dulled by the every daunting, “The Pain, The Pain, The Pain” celebrated beside a number.
The answerer seeks dullness to the ever chronic and acute, “The Pain, The Pain, The Pain” never honoring the answer.

yes, flow is important. Ebb and Flow, The Motion of the Ocean. very important!!! perhaps i will continue to look into this and revise my prose.

on a different note, i watched an old movie today. one that i liked and think others should look into.

Desperate Measures

it will never be a cult classic. it certainly wasn't a box office sensation. the story? cliché. the dialogue? trite and arnold-wannabe. "If I can't eat it, drink it, fuck it or fire it, I don't want it." perhaps the four new food groups. but the best was an exchange between peter mcCabe and frank conner. The shortened version is, "do you really want to test my resolve? to see where you end and i begin?" This was superb!!! and really captured what i believe to be not just the essence of the flick but the secret of life. going after what is necessary and desired with not the typical 110% muscle clad workout but with deeply felt conviction and determination. even in the end when frank is confronting peter on the bridge, peter is impressed with the resolve put into his pursuit. the response, "i'm motivated" should be put into all of our earthly endeavors.

am i motivated? are you? where do others end and i begin. maybe an answer can be seen in the accomplishments of lance armstrong maybe it can be achieved in all of us!!! let's work beyond 110% and truly succeed. well you decide for yourself, and i'll look into getting my four new food groups!!!